Jasons death

I awoke at 4:00 AM yesterday again I can't keep telling in detail the story yet but will just say that he died on the 16th after 2 weeks in ICU.
I am no different than other parents who have lost a child, I look at his picture as I go through a room & I just can't believe he is really gone, I drove by the cemetery this week with Derek & as I went by I told him "I just can't believe he is in there".
I think I will switch back to focusing on life now & what is happening.
Yesterday I skipped the treadmill because I shoveled the drive & the side walk, man I never really appreciated all that Steve did until I now have to do it. Still have not heard from SSI about his disability claim & he has been off work for one month now, our cash will be gone in 2 weeks so we will have to apply for assistance Steve said disability won't start for 6 months? what? he can't work and it is pretty much a permanent situation because he isn't going to grow another leg or new vertebrae.....
Anyway I am just thankful we have a home yet & if we lose it, we will still have our faith!
Great outlook huh? to go from hating my tiny little house