I hurt so bad........I'm off my depression meds for about 3 weeks now & today I just post something silly on my f/f & look up at a pic of Jason & just start crying & now can't stop why is it so hard off the meds? I think it would be so unsettleing to think that a pill can make me not love my son, not miss him & not hurt when I think about him but it feels that way right now.
when I'm off the meds I can't drive down our streets without "seeing" him riding his bike, or go by one of the houses that he used to play at or just walk around.....i hate this life!
Why it isn't air! I killed him & that is not fair.....killed him by unplugging him but it feels the same I want him back!
I'm not sure I want to go through this.
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